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[pywacket]

just found out that the thing I just got out of the hospital for is one of the leading causes of maternal morbity. No wonder I feel/felt like shit. Still scared every pain is an indicator that something is wrong, something is still in there. James wakes up from nightmares that I've died, I wake up from nightmares that I've died or he has.

If I never see another hospital it will be too soon. I can't clear my head of all the things that went wrong, or of this last surgery. This is what causes women to get hysterectomies. Yes I'm freaked.

But then I can look at Emily and feel better. And James, absolutely the finest man on the planet.

And I really appreciate those folks who've taken the time to send us good wishes and kind thoughts, especially during this last bit, which defined for us the phrase "insult added to injury."

James' mom sent us two boxes of WONDERFUL clothes and toys, I can't wait for our washer to be fixed to put her in them. And so did Angela's mom, Barbara--terribly cute dresses, shoes and hats from England. It's so wonderful to know how much this baby is loved already.

Her first nickname? Princess frogtoes cornsyrup...cause she sleeps on me like a wee frog, has really cute toes and is terribly sweet.

Comments

[oblomova.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, I'm SO sorry this has been such a rough haul. (And yes, your experience gives the lie to the whole "Oh, it's perfectly natural, nothing to worry about, blah blah blah" line of rhetoric that we were complaining about before Emily's arrival. Sometimes things DO go wrong.)

BUT the important thing is you're well, James is well, Emily is well, and I can't wait to see Princess Frogtoes Corn-Syrup in person. (That's a great moniker!) Just keep resting and taking care of yourself. You've been through a lot.

Lots of good wishes,

Kerry

[pywacket.livejournal.com]

i'm convinced there is very little that is 'natural' about childbirth for some of us--those of us without childbearing hips being first in that line.

As soon as we're all feeling better we're going to put together a cook out and you'll have to come!

Thanks for the kind thoughts.