very sad

mr. newg's decline has begun. I hope it isn't fast or too painful. I want all the time I can have with him. He is on the pain meds now, we're working on the dose. Too much and he's not in his head, too little and he can't eat. He still looks like my boy though. But he's pulling away from all of us.

And James is going out of town for the week next week. My sad duty is to locate a local vet that can let newg go if that becomes necessary.

I love my kitty folk so much. My heart is breaking again.