once more with feeling

[pywacket]

Just got back from being re-hospitalized.
They call it an ambulatory procedure, except I had to stay in the hospital again. I'd lost too much blood and retained placenta. So all the sickness I'd been feeling after leaving the hospital the first time wasn't just me being weak after a difficult birth.
I got a transfusion, antibiotics, fluids, a lot of drugs and no sleep--you know you don't really sleep in hospitals right? How does anyone get well?

They gave me the option of getting more blood since after being on the vampire bag all night I was still only at 8.5 (12 is normal)but told me I could also go home if I took it easy.

We came home. I've officially reached my limit. It seems like this birth has gone on forever. I honestly can't take any more. I just want to get on with the process of making this family. I want to enjoy Emily and James.

James wouldn't leave me, so he and Emily camped out in the hospital room with me overnight. I feel so guilty for putting them through this--I want to be spoiling them not being taken care of like a hothouse flower. He was so scared for me (apparently I was really sick) and had to take over almost all the Emily wrangling. He's such a wonderful man--I know without a doubt that he is my protector, my friend and a love beyond comprehension. It's incredible to know that someone loves you that deeply. I know I'll do anything to be worthy of that love and to return it.

I can't sit down and type this, so it's back to the couch for me.

I so hope the bad part is over now.

And yes, we are only having one child.

Comments

[eac.livejournal.com]

*hug*

Be good to yourself.

[mstinkerbell.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I am so glad you are home! Take good care of yourself sweetie. Remember that you have a lot of people who love you and will take good care of you, James and Emily. You just *HAVE* to promise to be GOOD to yourself, and get lots of rest. Ask for help. We all want you healthy and safe!! Emily needs her mommy rolling around on the floor playing and reading books so hurry up and get better!! *HUGS*HUGS*HUGS*

[sushispook.livejournal.com]

i got a dvd remote plugin for your ps2, and a fat pile of dvd's for you during any couch time. and let us know whatchoo want for dinner tommorrow night. if you ask really nicely, the sushi fairy might visit again :)

[archanglrobriel.livejournal.com]

Awww I'm so sorry this happened to you. I had similar issues with having a kid (we call her the miracle baby for a reason) and it was really hard on me to have this new person in my life and be so sick and weary and not able to enjoy her. Take it easy on yourself. It passes fairly quickly and know that you're going to be recovering during the "washed fruit" stage of her infancy (from Dave Barry who observed that newborn children are as interesting as washed fruit until they get older and become intersting). Later on you'll be up for more and there will be more to be up for. ;)
I've got a candle lit for you hun...
(oh yeah, and the pics of Emily were adorable. Such a profound personality already evident in those eyes! She's gorgeous.)

Be well...

[oblomova.livejournal.com]

... and don't feel guilty for needing some extra time and attention. James IS a great guy, and I know he's worried about you, but the most important thing is for you to rest up. Besides -- Emily gets to run you ragged for the rest of your life. So take the time now while you can.

And please let me know if you need anything, though Miska and Andrew seem to be right on top of things.

Lotsa extra hugs and good wishes going your way...

Kerry

[cheekytubemouse.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things have been so difficult for you, but I'm glad you have James to help you through them. I engaged in a little retail therapy tonight and now have more things to send Miss Emily. *hugs*

Huggles

[evergrey.livejournal.com]

Don't feel bad- you've been carrying a growing sentient life form aorund in you for 9 months or so. Of ocurse you need to recover. No reason to feel guilty about that!
I am glad that you lived!!!

[vintagoth.livejournal.com]

holy crap. I had no idea this was going on. I have really stayed away form my emails and such too long. I am SO glad you three are ok. I didn't get to light a candle or think about you when this was going on because I had no idea. But boy am I very happy to know all is ok now.