freaked

[pywacket]

so this morning we go in to have a procedure that may bring on contractions. I am freaked. I am as ready as I can be to have Emily out and about but of course I'm terrified. We could end up at the hospital tonite or in a few days for even more induction procedures.

And I feel like I have 6 million things to do before we can go, but I know that's not true. I've had myself on a schedule for getting things done the last three months. The house has to be clean though. If I come back to even a slightly messy house with a new baby,sore nether regions and precipitous hormone drop I'll wig out. One good thing about being old is you know yourself better. At least I keep a generally clean and organized house so it shouldn't take too much to get it where I want it.

I've done a lot of scary things in my life. This just might be the scariest. I also can't back out, no matter how I might want to at any one point. Oddly that's helpful.

And then I wonder when I get her home will I know enough to do...Like how humid do you keep a baby's room? How often do you snort her nose with that nose snorter thing? Can you use baby wipes on the right away or should I wait until she's bigger?
Please god don't let her be allergic to cats (still if she is we will find a way around that).
And there is this : http://www.msnbc.com/news/718394.asp. And we are getting a second air purifier.

I'm all over the map hmm...

That's just the way it's going to be . I've been organized and calm enough the last ten months. If I freak a little at this point I guess I do.. So I'll apologize upfront--If I'm weird or not paying attention or say something stupid, please bear with me , my brain is firmly lodged in my uterus right now.

Comments

[hep.livejournal.com]

when I was in labor EACH TIME I told cj/roger that I was done and I wanted to go home now.

I usually use a washcloth with water only for the first few weeks (until they go through their "infant acne" stage) but also huggies natural care unscented are really great (used to use those when out). The nose snorter thing is simple, just squeeze air out, put next to nose and gently release your hold on the bulb. Remember the layer rule for babies, the baby is one layer more then you. IE if you are comfy in just a tshirt, put a light sweater on the baby.

You will be fine, I know it!! :D

Love heppie

[hep.livejournal.com]

pee ess

I know what its like to be freaked. I was freaked each time, even with zanie. Cause you are in that waiting space, but once things start to happen, you start dealing with them and you have no time to be freaked anymore, but while waiting there is nothing to distract you except a bunch of "what if's" At least thats how it was for me. Be sure to spend a few mins with the boy just cuddling quietly together for a bit before you go in, might be your last chance to do so for awhile!!! :D

love hep

[archanglrobriel.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Geez this all sounds -so- familiar. I remember having a total panic attack the day Ree was born because I realized that there wasn't any backing out, that this was huge and was going to change my life forever etc. I was so freaked out when she came, too, and I realized that this little fragile looking thing was all my responsability and I worried about the nose sucking thing and the humidity thing too - and then my Mom told me to remember that people in mud huts were having babies and strapping them to their backs and that babies are resiliant little things who'll let you know when their needs aren't getting met. Bizarre as it may sound, it's both easier and harder than you'll imagine. Easier on the physical side, harder on the emotional. You'll do fine. *laugh*

[mattblakk.livejournal.com]

I swear that it didn't hurt me. You're right to be scared, it's an incredibly intense process, but one that you will make it through. Just remember, when you get to that point where you've had quite a bit more than enough you can ask for pain medication. They can give you pain meds if you need them before you're eligible for the epidural.

I love you, and I know you are a totally super star mom, and James is so in love with you (and the wee one already) that he will move heaven and earth (for her as well as for) you.

I wish I could be there to hold your hand, but I'm headed off to the demon basement from hell to pack, sort and clean some more. Too bad I don't know someone with a dust fetish who's an obsessive compulsive sorter and cleaner, I could bring them over and release them downstairs and come back after lunch and it could all be done.

Gonna go get me a dose of that dirt!

[archanglrobriel.livejournal.com]

It didn't hurt me either, actually. It's intense, but everyone tells you how bad childbirth hurts and I was pretty unimpressed with it as pain goes. I broke my leg when Ree was one and THAT was painful, but as far as the birth thing goes...I've had worse cramps from bad seafood. *shrug* If you ask me the fear that people put on women around the mythology of pain is worse than the actual experience.